Throughout this Summer God has been showing me His heart
for the individual. That amongst so much, in crowds of people, He sees the
hearts and needs of people.
In July I had the opportunity to go to Awakening Europe in
Germany. Words cannot quite describe what that experience was like. There were
times when I was walking around the stadium and I could just feel the presence
of God so strongly. His hand in that place was so evident. 25,000+ people
coming together for the sole purpose to worship God and see Him reign in
Europe. The hunger was tangible. It felt as though if we had been allowed people would have stayed in the stadium all night worshipping. In an area that
in history was so impacted by darkness was now being used for the glory and
beauty of God. At first, I found myself
looking for the big things I wanted to see God do, but by the end of the 4 days
I found myself wrecked by the small moments. The simple prayers where God moved
and lives were transformed in a moment, years of torment that were ended, those
who desperately needing healing getting the impossible that they were crying
out for. Lives were changed forever, and that is of infinite value. In a crowd
of 25,000 those moments might be easy to pass by, but I find it is there that
Gods heart is so deeply revealed. He is the God who always SEES us.
Getting to partner with what God is doing is truly one of
the most beautiful things I can do. I
just think about how fun and exciting it is, that God uses us, to bring healing,
to bring life to bring about redemption. I think of the picture of a Father who
is washing his car, he could do it by himself perfectly, but he chooses to
invite his children in to help because doing it together brings so much more
joy and it cultivates relationship. God loves to constantly be in communication
with us.
And while it is easy to hold onto these truths when I see
them right before my eyes. The true test of the depth of my belief comes when
they are challenged. There have been instances throughout the summer where I
have needed God to show up. I could choose to partner with fear and anxiety,
which far too often is my first response. But God challenged me to hold onto
the peace he so freely gives, to grasp hold of the joy that is available constantly!
He is a God of victory, He is always providing, He is always good, He is always
Faithful, He always desires to Heal. We do not fight from what the natural
says, but we fight from victory, from being seated in heavenly places. I choose to live my life not dictated by my
changing circumstances but by the TRUTH of what God says and who God says I
am.
I have not been able to escape from the book of Isaiah
lately. My favorite place has been in Isaiah 41: 9-10
“I have chosen you and not cast you off; FEAR NOT for I am
with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will
help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
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Starting Sept 1st, I will be attending a second
year at BSSM. My time here has been so
valuable and it is has been worth every ounce of money that I have put in, and
everything that I have had to sacrifice. There is nothing better than being in
the place that God has called me to be.
If you would like to support me I still need to raise $3850
in order to pay for the school year. I know that God is going to provide for
me, no matter what it looks J
Below is the link to donate if you feel led.
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